addicted to imagination

i am a teenage girl who love to imagine very much.actually i keep imagine about nonsense all the time as long as my brain is functioning.i mean i can think and imagine when i am conscious.do you know that i even imagine when i sleep?i definitely know that you don't know about that because i never tell you before.i have been suffered from insomnia for almost a week.i kept imaginating and thinking about something which is complicated and creepy.i don't really know what is that.maybe it is just an annoying nightmare or maybe it means something to me.nobody understand me,and of course i also don't understand anybody.i feel scared and edgy now.i am so lonely.i need somebody to give me a hug, to console me, to guide me, to help me, or even to love me and care about me.i don't want to be just "anybody" or "nobody".i want to be "somebody" to "someone".i really hate seventeen.seventeen brings many trouble to me.i want to find a way to escape from all the trouble but not a solution for the trouble.finding a way that lead to exit seems to be the easiest way but not the best way to overcome the problem.i am a fool and idiot but what is the matter?i don't care.i will die one day and that is the day i need to face the consequences.i just want to be the happiest one not the best and perfect one.